Saturday, June 2, 2012

Happy birthday, Mom

It is my mom's birthday today. She would have been 56.  What a hard day. I am walking around heartbroken everyday.
My mom's sister, Cathy, came to town to spend time with me. Seeing my aunt makes me feel like a little piece of my mom is here. They have some similarities in the sound of their voices and their laughs but also, its important to me to be around people who loved my mom too. Who knew her. Who appreciated her. Who just "got" her. We even did something that my mom and I would have done today... even on her own birthday, she would have bought Lila some new baby clothes. And that is just what Cathy and I did. We also got Sprinkles cupcakes in honor of Mom. We also got a flower delivery from Ashley and a nice photobook of pictures she designed of Mom so that Lila can have a book of Grandma. It was such a great idea. I wrote Lila a little note  in the front of the book and made notes thru it so that Lila can always look and see Grandma, and her whole family for that matter.  I am so thankful for the support system that I do have, but I just cannot stop missing my mom and thinking of her. I never thought that her birthday last year would be our last together. I would give just about anything to bring her back.
Happy birthday, Mom. I love you.
Pretty birthday flowers and Lila Grace with her great Aunt Cathy (wearing a new outfit Cathy got her today!)

1 comment:

  1. You handled the day wonderfully Claire...doing the things that she would have wanted to do, and honoring her. xoxo